Post by Steve Sinclair on Aug 27, 2016 12:35:25 GMT
It’s early Thursday morning in the RV park. Sutton has gotten up before the crack of dawn, gotten his sweats on to get his run on. As quietly as he could, he exits the RV without waking up Lillie Mae and started to jog on down the road in the RV park.
Some time later…….
A sweaty Sutton is standing in this picnic area of the RV park. Fire Pits, charcoal grills, tables, everything you need to have a nice little picnic. His sweat shirt is soaked through as he takes a seat on one of the picnic tables.
Sutton You want me to be truthful? You want me to speak from the heart? Fine. Here we go.
Sutton runs his hand through his long sweaty stringy hair.
Sutton I didn’t finish high school. I dropped out. I know, i know, how shocking, another redneck from North Carolina who dropped out of highschool to get into trouble. But I didn’t drop out because I didn’t like going to school…..
Sutton shrugs.
Sutton Ooookay that was a small part of it, but I ended up dropping out because I had a hard time staying sober. I was what some of us would say a powerlifter, 12 ounces at a time. All day long, everyday, and twice on sunday. I was so blasted, so wrecked that there was no way I was going to be able to sit through health class without puking all over the place and to be honest, getting sober and suffering through a wicked hangover was just too much to bare and as you know, the best way to cure a hangover is to keep drinking. Yeah I know. Not too shocking to hear me say that I had a drinking problem.
Sutton places his elbows on his knees and leans over on them.
Sutton I have no idea who my dad is. I know his name, Herbert Raymond Sutton but I have never meet that bastard. He walked out on my mamma before I was born. I never got a birthday card from him growing up. No letter, nothing. As a result of him walking out on mom and being a deadbeat dad, Mom had to work two jobs. She worked nights as a nurse and during the day as a stocker at the piggly wiggly. She did the best she could but I was a handful growing up. I might have been too much. Who knows. Did she devote the time that might should have spent on me? No but she tried. I can’t fault her. I spent most of my time at my Uncle Ned’s farm, who, and this might come as a surprise, is a alcoholic. After milking the cows, stacking them hay bales and what not, I spent time with my Uncle doing his two passions in life.
Drinking and shooting his guns.
Once I became an alcoholic and just couldn’t get my sh*t together to drag my sorry ass to school five days a week, Mom kicked me out. Yeah I tried to live a tent in the back yard of mom’s double wide, then I moved to the front yard before she called the cops and I moved into my Uncle’s barn. I know how that might sound but on the other hand, I was never late for work.
Sutton chuckles.
Sutton I’m not asking for your pity and don’t feel sorry for me. I’m a drunk. I’m not a good reader and god bless Nanook because I’m not good with my money. Do you know he gives me a allowance? I’m 23 years old and I get a allowance. I don’t even get to see my checks from the distillery or from the UWL. I couldn’t even tell you how much money I have or how much I’m worth. Truth be told, I don’t even know if I am a millionaire. I just assume I am and if you don’t like that….
Sutton shrugs again.
Sutton I really don’t care. I’m a sucker for women like Lillie Mae and Jessica Larkin and truth be told Little Billy, if those girls don’t get your blood pumping and your heart rate to tick up, then maybe you should go spend time with Joe Jones. It pisses me off to no end how you are talking about Lillie Mae. Where’s your girl? Who’s keeping you warm on a cold night? Can’t look at your hand and speak the truth? I’m a jealous prick. I hate when we’re out like at the fair seeing it’s fair season and some dude is checking out my girl. I just want to walk up to him and knock his teeth down his throat but I just can’t do that. But I really want to. What Gary Young and other call anger issues, I call passion. Passion for my girl.
I owe my entire wrestling career to Nanook. He made this possible and maybe I do lean on him too much. He helped me get into the sport, he has worked hard to put me the spots I have had in that ring and….
Sutton pauses and looks down at the ground for a second.
Sutton I sometimes feel that the outcomes of the matches he has helped me get don’t match the effort he has put into making those matches happen. Am I disappointed that I lost to Eagles twice in title matches? Yup I sure am. Was I pissed that I didn’t beat Arch? Yup, sure was. Was my blood boiling that I couldn’t best Sunday Night Heat? Hell yeah and did I lose my sh*t when John Raide defeated me? What do you think? Late at night I sit in the hotel room, in my RV and I think about the matches, I drink and I beat myself up over them. All of them. I am not getting the results that I think I should be getting. I hit the gym. I study the tapes. I talk to grizzled vets and I do everything I can do to get better and yet, yet the results are the same. I have thought about quitting more than a couple of times. Maybe I’m just not that good? Maybe I just can’t cut it and the worst voices I hear in this world are in my head. Like I said I’m a very passionate guy and I don’t want to disappoint anyone. I have this need that I have to win to have Nanook feel that his time, his effort, his money he spent on me in my training is paid back ten fold and every time I end up defeated I just have the weight of the world pressing down on me. And it’s that pressure that drives me to a dark place. Everyone here has seen that dark place I go to and go ahead and say it, it’s not a good place for me to be in but this is just who I am. I self medicate. I don’t have very high confidence….
Sutton sits up straight and takes a deep breath.
Sutton Till I got clean and sober. You can say all of the sh*t you want Little BIlly about that Rumble match and how I feel that I should have won it. In my mind, that has been the best match of my career and yeah, I should have won that bitch. No one was going to stop me in winning that match and there is nothing you can say to change my outlook on that match. I don’t give a rats ass who you have faced, who you might have beaten or didn’t beat. You have your outlook on life and I have mine, through unimpaired eyes. I hang my hat on that match as a new beginning here in the UWL and it is the only match I can look to and talk about because that has been the only match I have had in the past two months. That is just how it is but yeah, in the same time frame, I have won the same amount of matches that you did. Let’s talk about that for a second.
The biggest rising star of the UWL! The future of the UWL! Mister GOAT himself! The only guy in the UWL who had the balls to face a midget…...has the same amount of victories as the UWL drunk over the past two months. Way to go Little Billy! You should be so proud! And since we’re speaking truthfully. Speaking from the heart, know this. This Saturday at Heroes and Outlaws, I will right a wrong that you were apart of, I will in my mind win that Rumble match and in doing so I will have one more victory than you since the Rumble! And when I do Little Billy. Everyone will look at me differently. They will see me as a threat! A threat to defeat them, a threat to move up the ranks quickly and pick up the TV and Triple Crown Championships and the only Billy in the UWL who will be viewed as a easy win…..
Sutton stands up.
Sutton Is you.
Fade out.
Some time later…….
A sweaty Sutton is standing in this picnic area of the RV park. Fire Pits, charcoal grills, tables, everything you need to have a nice little picnic. His sweat shirt is soaked through as he takes a seat on one of the picnic tables.
Sutton You want me to be truthful? You want me to speak from the heart? Fine. Here we go.
Sutton runs his hand through his long sweaty stringy hair.
Sutton I didn’t finish high school. I dropped out. I know, i know, how shocking, another redneck from North Carolina who dropped out of highschool to get into trouble. But I didn’t drop out because I didn’t like going to school…..
Sutton shrugs.
Sutton Ooookay that was a small part of it, but I ended up dropping out because I had a hard time staying sober. I was what some of us would say a powerlifter, 12 ounces at a time. All day long, everyday, and twice on sunday. I was so blasted, so wrecked that there was no way I was going to be able to sit through health class without puking all over the place and to be honest, getting sober and suffering through a wicked hangover was just too much to bare and as you know, the best way to cure a hangover is to keep drinking. Yeah I know. Not too shocking to hear me say that I had a drinking problem.
Sutton places his elbows on his knees and leans over on them.
Sutton I have no idea who my dad is. I know his name, Herbert Raymond Sutton but I have never meet that bastard. He walked out on my mamma before I was born. I never got a birthday card from him growing up. No letter, nothing. As a result of him walking out on mom and being a deadbeat dad, Mom had to work two jobs. She worked nights as a nurse and during the day as a stocker at the piggly wiggly. She did the best she could but I was a handful growing up. I might have been too much. Who knows. Did she devote the time that might should have spent on me? No but she tried. I can’t fault her. I spent most of my time at my Uncle Ned’s farm, who, and this might come as a surprise, is a alcoholic. After milking the cows, stacking them hay bales and what not, I spent time with my Uncle doing his two passions in life.
Drinking and shooting his guns.
Once I became an alcoholic and just couldn’t get my sh*t together to drag my sorry ass to school five days a week, Mom kicked me out. Yeah I tried to live a tent in the back yard of mom’s double wide, then I moved to the front yard before she called the cops and I moved into my Uncle’s barn. I know how that might sound but on the other hand, I was never late for work.
Sutton chuckles.
Sutton I’m not asking for your pity and don’t feel sorry for me. I’m a drunk. I’m not a good reader and god bless Nanook because I’m not good with my money. Do you know he gives me a allowance? I’m 23 years old and I get a allowance. I don’t even get to see my checks from the distillery or from the UWL. I couldn’t even tell you how much money I have or how much I’m worth. Truth be told, I don’t even know if I am a millionaire. I just assume I am and if you don’t like that….
Sutton shrugs again.
Sutton I really don’t care. I’m a sucker for women like Lillie Mae and Jessica Larkin and truth be told Little Billy, if those girls don’t get your blood pumping and your heart rate to tick up, then maybe you should go spend time with Joe Jones. It pisses me off to no end how you are talking about Lillie Mae. Where’s your girl? Who’s keeping you warm on a cold night? Can’t look at your hand and speak the truth? I’m a jealous prick. I hate when we’re out like at the fair seeing it’s fair season and some dude is checking out my girl. I just want to walk up to him and knock his teeth down his throat but I just can’t do that. But I really want to. What Gary Young and other call anger issues, I call passion. Passion for my girl.
I owe my entire wrestling career to Nanook. He made this possible and maybe I do lean on him too much. He helped me get into the sport, he has worked hard to put me the spots I have had in that ring and….
Sutton pauses and looks down at the ground for a second.
Sutton I sometimes feel that the outcomes of the matches he has helped me get don’t match the effort he has put into making those matches happen. Am I disappointed that I lost to Eagles twice in title matches? Yup I sure am. Was I pissed that I didn’t beat Arch? Yup, sure was. Was my blood boiling that I couldn’t best Sunday Night Heat? Hell yeah and did I lose my sh*t when John Raide defeated me? What do you think? Late at night I sit in the hotel room, in my RV and I think about the matches, I drink and I beat myself up over them. All of them. I am not getting the results that I think I should be getting. I hit the gym. I study the tapes. I talk to grizzled vets and I do everything I can do to get better and yet, yet the results are the same. I have thought about quitting more than a couple of times. Maybe I’m just not that good? Maybe I just can’t cut it and the worst voices I hear in this world are in my head. Like I said I’m a very passionate guy and I don’t want to disappoint anyone. I have this need that I have to win to have Nanook feel that his time, his effort, his money he spent on me in my training is paid back ten fold and every time I end up defeated I just have the weight of the world pressing down on me. And it’s that pressure that drives me to a dark place. Everyone here has seen that dark place I go to and go ahead and say it, it’s not a good place for me to be in but this is just who I am. I self medicate. I don’t have very high confidence….
Sutton sits up straight and takes a deep breath.
Sutton Till I got clean and sober. You can say all of the sh*t you want Little BIlly about that Rumble match and how I feel that I should have won it. In my mind, that has been the best match of my career and yeah, I should have won that bitch. No one was going to stop me in winning that match and there is nothing you can say to change my outlook on that match. I don’t give a rats ass who you have faced, who you might have beaten or didn’t beat. You have your outlook on life and I have mine, through unimpaired eyes. I hang my hat on that match as a new beginning here in the UWL and it is the only match I can look to and talk about because that has been the only match I have had in the past two months. That is just how it is but yeah, in the same time frame, I have won the same amount of matches that you did. Let’s talk about that for a second.
The biggest rising star of the UWL! The future of the UWL! Mister GOAT himself! The only guy in the UWL who had the balls to face a midget…...has the same amount of victories as the UWL drunk over the past two months. Way to go Little Billy! You should be so proud! And since we’re speaking truthfully. Speaking from the heart, know this. This Saturday at Heroes and Outlaws, I will right a wrong that you were apart of, I will in my mind win that Rumble match and in doing so I will have one more victory than you since the Rumble! And when I do Little Billy. Everyone will look at me differently. They will see me as a threat! A threat to defeat them, a threat to move up the ranks quickly and pick up the TV and Triple Crown Championships and the only Billy in the UWL who will be viewed as a easy win…..
Sutton stands up.
Sutton Is you.
Fade out.